Ok, finally got around to changing the introduction text. But as you can see, I'm too sianz to write a proper one, so am going to blabber on in hopes that you will get an idea of what sort of person I am by guessing. Yeah, the format of this blog is crap. I haven't got around to fixing it. Later lah.. Much later...
Sometimes I wonder whether he realises how much his words hurt me. They hurt. They really do.
I honestly don't believe he wants to, but how can he not know when he throws them like knives? Measured weapons sharpened and aimed to draw blood, sting and cut.
He throws them carelessly, in such volume and abandon. Yet they are executed with such cunning dexterity, as if to inflict maximum damage.
Does he not realise, I sit there in silence, not because I have surrendered, but because I am dumbstruck by his cruelty? I take it because I don't know what else to do.
If you do not hate me, why do you do this to me? Do you want to make me cry? If I cry in front of you, will you finally be appeased? Will you finally realise to stop it, just please stop?
ME signed off at 6:05 PM
120th entry
I'm sorry if I find you boring.
I simply have zero interest in certain.. types of people. I find absolutely everything about them boring. Everything that comes out of their mouths is boring, their personalities are boring, their lives are boring. I struggle, struggle to pay attention to what they are saying. There's absolutely nothing in the world I can ask them which I actually would want to know.
They are so... generic. If they died tomorrow, I wouldn't feel the loss. I easily can hear whatever comes out from their mouths - conversation, views, personality - from the billions of people walking pass me everyday. I hear it like a tape recorder, the same mundane living, the same life "drama", talking about the same people with different names. It BORES me.
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Don't think me a better person than I am; never think me a better person than I am. That way, I won't have to deal with your disappointment.
I can be harsh, vicious, even malicious. I can say I'm sorry, but I will do it again. Since I know I will do it again, and again, and again, the only good I have in me is to have you keep a distance from me.
